India #1

September 9, 2009 {Day 23 in India}


I have been in India for over three weeks now, and love it more each day. At the same time I have been more comfortable in my life, but I don't know about content. I just know that I am suppose to be here, right now. When that happens I feel so content, I don't need to think about anywhere else.
Each day seems similar, but unpredictable. The place I am staying at it beautiful and safe. The couple I am staying with I have been able to help out all over the place, do all sorts of things. I enjoy knowing that I can just make someone else's life a little easier.

There have been so many times when I just have the thought " I couldn't be happier then right now..." I think it must be the joy of the Lord. I'll be in the car, and watching people outside, and just get so overwhelmed with excitement. I think the reality of me being here is just so incredible. I think I just know me being here is God, cause I couldn't have made it here by myself.

In the LA international airport, I found myself feeling so overwhelmed with fear. Fear of the unknown and feeling alone. When I travel I find it quite a lonesome experience. When the Singapore airlines began to board the plane, they were speaking a totally different language, and I had no idea what I was in for. I felt out of my comfort zone, but I was still in LA. My focus was on India, but my heart wanted to run back home where everything is familiar.

Each flight that I boarded ( lets note I had a total of 5 flights...) the more I wanted to turn around. Calling every member in my family, each stop I made. My mom kept reminding me that I am never alone, even when I feel like I am. God is walking before me, and behind me. I wish I could have found more comfort from those words, but really I truly could not feel much more then my nerves. I knew it was the truth, but my emotions seem so much more real then the Truth.

I can still remember the feeling of relief once I made it to my room in the Singapore airport. I thought " Ok, I can't turn back now...". So i was able to sleep and begin to enjoy the rest of my traveling.

I arrived in Chennai, late at night and wondering how I really did make it there alive. God.
I think I may have turned around if I knew He hadn't called me here. Once a few days had past in India, and my jet lag left...I saw really how amazing it is. I started to soak up as much as I could. At the same time learning how to handle being so different from the people around me. I love the way they are, its neat to experience difference once in a while.

I wish i could put into words everything what happens around me, and pictures of everything that is going on. It is hard to capture a moment sometimes. I have seen so many things that I didn't even know was happening. 5 people on a motorbike. The father driving with his daughter in front of him, his son behind, and wife at the back, holding their 6 month old baby...fast asleep in her arms. While they swerve in and out of traffic, honking away. Women carry baskets on their heads to carry building material, and men tie cloth around their waist and it looks like a skirt. I wonder as I watch all these people walking around " Where are you guys going". I want to find out and see. All of their shoes seem so wore, from walking here and there. Me traveling Northern Ireland to India you can see what each place see's as important. In Europe shoes are a statement, in India shoes are either well wore, or not on. bare feet : )

India is beautiful if you are looking through the right eyes...Gods eyes. I truly love it here.